I know that I am avoiding my work right now, but I have been working since 11am. , so I should deserve a break.

Spring Break:
I drove home with J last week to see my ailing grandma. On the positive, she is healthy enough to last awhile, as long as she doesn't get sick. On the negative, she's now in the alziehmers ward. This is the most depressing place on earth, for her. Looking at all the medicated heads bobbing in wheelchairs, I sense an odd happiness, because I know they are all probably lost in the memories of their youth and happy. But for my grandma, she doesn't have many people to talk to. Yes, she has dementia, but not full blown alzeihmers.

It's horrible to think that my grandma is slipping away.

There were many interesting stories that my crazy aunt T had filled her head with, and I had to set my grandma straight on a few things ( no, my mom didn't steal your diamonds, that was aunt T; No, my dad died before i got married- 16 years beforehand; etc). I had not the heart to remind her my grandpa died 2 years ago. Why remind her of sadness?

Anyways, I saw her for a few hours, then bawled my eyes out on the way east to see the family. My mom is doing better (she's a bit of the woman scorned these days) and so are my sister's family (they had a 'marraige maintenance weekend' in vegas. bullocks for them!) My nephews are as cute as can be. And I did share one unasked for opinion, even though I did point out that they have 8 candy bars in the fridge that that's horrible. Full sized ones!

-- backstory: my sister and I grew up with healthy snacks and one soda a day. Now she uses all kinds of candy as a reward. Food as a reward sends the wrong signal. It started out ok because my first nephew was underweight and they needed him to eat. Now he's just picky (normal kid) and eats alot of chocolate between meals. erg. I will not say anything!

Back home, my dissertation is frying. I actually have about 15 pages of an intro, and will have a second revision of that (expanded) for wednesday.
--------- pause-------------------- (i have to go to yoga, keeping with my new stress plan!)