Witch of Honor

IN what world is your SISTER the MAID OF HONOR supposed to tell you that the dresses make her look ugly--- you can make your friends look ugly but not her-- and that payback's a bitch? What a freaking spoiled brat.Sadly, what follows is the email I just send my older sister, so she could read it to my younger fashion-natzi-selfish-rude-unconsciously hurtful-sister. She was supposed to go home this weekend and help my mom pack up the house. My mom is getting a divorce from my stepfather, who selfishly wants out of the marriage. I can say that because selfishly, he didn't see the problems 11 years ago that I saw before their marriage began.

Anyways, I just have to share, because there's nothing I can do about this, and it pains me greatly. I know I acted childishly, but I really wish my sister was a better person. She's just so self-centered, and can't see that she is being a vapid creature............

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Dear sisters,

I am so thankful that you two are there to help mom and I can't. (older sister), I know that you have been a big help through out all of this. You can't avoid it :). You also have always been good at being there for family when we need it. Always.

(Younger sister), this is the guilt trip to make sure you spend time helping mom. Because I know that you won't spend any saturday in (home state) helping her. Enjoy football. And don't you dare yell or say anything to her. Your priority this weekend is mom. NOT yourself. That said, if you call me and are anything irrational, I WILL call you the spoiled brat you are. That does not mean we can't talk about all that I'm going to say, but I will not have a conversation of raised voices.

This world does not revolve around you. God forbid you have to wear the dress I CHOOSE to MY WEDDING. you should have said 'it's lovely' and I'll wear it" not PAYBACKS A BITCH. I don't organize my wedding to make YOU happy. Just the same, You don't lie and say you are going to help someone when the truth is that you are using the excuse to drive home to see a football game with Mike, or fly home and avoid helping.

I know mom is difficult. I know she's awful at asking for help. But a blind man can see that she needs someone to help. It's not just a matter of taping a box, it's being present as she dismantles the life she once had, and has to mentally deal with the emptiness left over. She had her life crushed. Let her bitch. Let her cry. Be a good daughter and BE THERE. You do not get to act like the youngest anymore. You are an adult. I understand that your life may not be all you wish it to be right now, but sometimes selflessness is what is needed when it comes to family. When you need me, I am there, completely. But when I need you, you send text messages that I make you look ugly with a bad dress and I should feel bad. When mom needs you, use it as an excuse to go play with your friends. grow up and act responsibly. If I had money, I would have been there this weekend, in the garage, marking boxes and packing mom's LIFE away to move. Even if I just SAT there and watched her work, she should have the option of NOT BEING ALONE when she has been PROMISED companionship.

So if you think paybacks a bitch, remember it when you have to move from chicago to somewhere else, or when you get married and want my cooperation, or when you just plain need your family to be there, without question, at your side. You get what you give. On that note, if I EVER act selfish, I expect you to be there to remind me that I shouldn't. But, if i'm just acting selfish to remind you that you are selfish sometimes, well, I'm off the hook.

Too bad you didn't answer the phone. We could have had this fight the right way.

By the way, thanks for fucking apologizing for your hysterically unsupportive, unloving, self centered, babyish attitude about the dresses. If you don't want to wear one, don't stand next to me. A Maid of Honor is above all SUPPORTIVE. You should SUPPORT me. But I see, as long as its in the pretty dress, you will.

And being the baby, you try to get off the hook of not apologizing, instead of sending picture texts of shoes. Buy all the fucking shoes you want. We are not picking any bridesmaid shoes until next year. Unlike you, some of the bridesmaids DON"T have a disposable income for 50 $ shoes. It's Payless baby. So deal with it.

That being said, have a nice weekend. See you in November.